Am so tired, i think i am going to sleep soon.

cheryl is very happy because she bought nice stuff today! :) and had a nice day out with mandylokalingling, even though my feet were horribly abused by my shoes. Biting the shoes doesn't work okay, I bit it really fiercely in the morning but it still continued to bite me.

Orchard's xmas lightings are really quite pretty. I'm very tickled by the reindeers in dresses!

( frivolous matters, not appropriate for perusal )

So happy that nothing and nobody can dampen my mood! but srsly, you and you are just kinda gross.

WHOOOOPEEEZADOODAS! omg what a long exclamation! But As are kinda over! like really! :D i mean minus the MCQ, and we're really done!

I can smell my new life waiting for me! I have a whole list of things to do! I must start writing them down so i can actually start on them!

Today was a goood day, if I could feel this way about the rest of the papers, that will be good. But alright, physics today was er not very challenging and slightly 'no kick'. All my memorising went to nothing cos there weren't any lasers/semiconductors or Schrodinger!!! I felt cheated, and you could see all the stupid boys who finished super early going toilet and looking damn pleased with myself. Speaking of which, I have never seen girls go to the toilet before. Boys cannot control their bladder eh?

Alright, omg I am one hour and 15 mins away from throwing away all physics related stuff! Okay, no more papers! We trooped down to eat nice MOF, and sat there playing guess the country game, and talking about strange stuff like siamese twins, pregnant minahs, learning chinese! Lousy boys had no stamina so they went home, while we went to watch fantastic mr fox! It was really cool, I like it very much, the animation was different, but it fitted the show really well! Recommended, go watch it people! But if you have bad taste, like those lousy idiots who were complaining that the show was too boring, then maybe not!

Then we continued eating, omg pigs. And went shopping! Seriously quite a lot of nice dresses around! Everyone should have a easy task looking for prom dresses, oh but I guess everyone's going to buy the same dress too! Super cool topshop dress that arina and I liked, but it was so bodycon, and our tummys were just showing! Damn sad, seriously, and with all these bodycon dresses this season, there seems to be nothing that a person with a ugly bulging tummy can fit. :( But yah, there were so many nice dresses around, but I'm glad I'm spared from the agony of looking for prom dress! But then now I have no excuse to get money to buy a nice dress! :(

Oh and then we sat with little kids to watch the BARBIE show!!! Hee, omg it was hilarious! We were just bitching about the I-think-i-am-so-hot-KEN, and lousy dancers who couldn't dance! And there was a cool 3 storey barbie doll house!!! Alright will stop acting like a kid, but barbie is getting uglier. :(

Hee, nevermind no real shopping, there's online retail therapy! I have a new plan: it's called buy a new pair of shoes every week! :DD hee and I can do that cos the shoes are freaking cheap and nice! bye, I am going gmarketing! :D

LALALA, CAN YOU JUST FEEL THIS POST BRIMMING WITH HAPPINESS! omg, new shoes here i come!!!!!! :D

I have many things I want to say to some people, I will find the time to do so after As.

Little things people do and say have been annoying me, but I guess I'm not that bothered. Good, I have a high threshold for irritating things. (I like the word threshold, i like how it sounds!) And then I realise that I'm not so annoyed because these people don't matter to me that much actually.

Okay, I will go get started on some econs case study.

I need a lot more courage to face the rest of the papers. I need to stop brooding about those mistakes I've made, and look forward.

A levels have been making me depressed, I don't even feel happy that I don't need to touch all those subjects anymore.

Seriously I've never felt so affected by papers before. And now they are just weighing on my mind 24/7. :(

Okay, and really need to accept that all my As are just going going gone. bye As and hi to FASS.

CHERYLNG just snap out of it!!!!!!! :( Jolted awake by a nightmare about phy geog and realised I missed out stuff again.

Need a lot of happy pills to survive this. Look forward look forward look forward. I feel myself sinking into a deep deep hole, actually I kinda wanna bury myself and not see the world anymore. I don't like how I'm like anymore.

okay bye. do tell me if you have happy pills to offer.

HI. 16 DAYS LEFT TO A'S!

omg this kinda feels unreal, i don't know why I can be sitting here calmly and typing this post out when there's slightly mor than 2 weeks to the biggest exams in my entire life. The exam that's going to determine my life, and my future. O.M.G

okay, i feel slightly more worried now. But srsly i have been too happy, and not very stressed. Doing things everyday no doubt, but I think i am not pushing myself hard enough. :( which cannot do, because unlike my brilliant friend (hee i am super honoured to know the smartest girl in RJ- hee hojiayun that's you!) and other equally smart friends, I am not very gifted academically. (or in any other areas), hence I should stop being complacent and thinking my As are within reach. BECAUSE THEY ARE NOT!!!!

but haha, studying is quite enjoyable. It's not as bad, I think studying alone's the best sometimes, but it's good to have company too occasionally. Classmates and random friends of friends whom I've known through mugging make me smile! Today at dinner, people started clappin damn loudly, and then soon we all realised it was for the parents who have been serving us cheap and good dinner these 2 weeks! It was kinda coool, the entire feeling! Yay i love RPA, they are srsly awesome people who willingly sacrifice so much time and money and effort just to do this for us! I feel like making a card for them because I think the school's really quite supportive!

Yeppyepp, and i found good new mugging hideouts! :D Okay, I don't think I'll update again till the As are almost over! Goodluck to everyone on my friend list, it's the last stretch so all the best!!!!!!! Take care of your health and drink lots of water, and have sufficient sleep!

hearts hearts hearts to everyone!

okay just some random thoughts after all this awards fiasco.

I just think some teachers should be a bit more generous. Honestly, an appreciation= thank you for contributing to the CCA for the past years. To the teacher, it's just merely putting an additional name down, but to the student, that little certificate is at least testament for all the hours he has spent in going for practices etc. While some teachers will sweetly give all the CCA members the appreciation award, some only bother giving those in exco positions, which is kinda unfair. So does it mean that normal members didn't put in any time and effort into the CCA?

Oh, haha, I am satisfied with what I got because I don't think i deserve a giant award because other people did so much more than me. I was just feeling sour about how back in RG, those who weren't in exco didn't even get a single cert for appreciation for band, when we practised almost every single day, and were really good dedicated members. Just because a particular LIM was being extremely stingy and bitchy.

okay, sry I sound like sourgrapes. But if i am a teacher next time, I'll promise I'll be nice and generous!
 

hoho RJ is just filled with too smart people! I saw some fb status that says that almost everyone has like 3 As! ohgosh, then i honestly think I'm at the bottom of the pack with no As to speak of.

okay end of rant, 34 more days for me to get 5 As. Smart people should all just stop complaining, or just complain in their smart circles and not near me.

off to conquer maths!

so effing tired, I feel like disappearing underground sometimes. I'm so tired, i don't even feel like talking to anyone. My brain feels like mush and honestly, i don't think there's much in it.

I saw a blind couple sitting opposite me in the train today, I wondered how their world is like. I can't imagine really, I tried thinking of some activities that I do that do not require sight, and I think the only things i could think of is listening to music and sleeping. I think being able to see is one of the luckiest things we are blessed with.

Maybe I should go puke all my insides out tmr, maybe it will make me feel better. Because seriously I have been feeling like C.R.A.P. Haha omg my mood's going to match my grades, how cute!

Need to go back to doing my portfolio, I'm falling asleep.

grrrr at tudou. it's loading like damn slowly, i am SO ANNOYED. I promised to start studying after I finished episode 23, and okay it's just my excuses, but once I've decided to start work after a certain time/certain event, I cannot start work before that. HAHAH, okay shit that totally sounded like the lamest excuse, but wev.

That's why I start work at nice times! Like 11.00PM, 11.30PM, 11.15PM kinda thing, not like 11.23PM, or 11.47PM. haha, so if I missed a nice time, which happens 4 times in 1 hour, I just have to wait for the next one! heee omg maybe that's why I am always so unproductive!

By the time my show finishes, I bet I'll be too lazy to do physics. :/ nyehh nyeh.

ah 1 more day of slacking at home and then it's back to school, results. :( NOT QT. speaking of which, i have not thought about unis for kinda a long while. shit, I need to stop being absorbed in hk dramas, reading food blogs and celebs' blogs, and finding nice pictures, and waking up at grand times of 11AM!  I think i've forgotten how to mug. :(

boo omg results, now that it's edging closer, I'm kinda getting worried. And As' in idk how many days' time? just slightly more than a month i think, someone update me please!

2 important birthdays coming up this weekend! (: mommmmyypoopsie and tangtangtangtangtang!