HI. 16 DAYS LEFT TO A'S!

omg this kinda feels unreal, i don't know why I can be sitting here calmly and typing this post out when there's slightly mor than 2 weeks to the biggest exams in my entire life. The exam that's going to determine my life, and my future. O.M.G

okay, i feel slightly more worried now. But srsly i have been too happy, and not very stressed. Doing things everyday no doubt, but I think i am not pushing myself hard enough. :( which cannot do, because unlike my brilliant friend (hee i am super honoured to know the smartest girl in RJ- hee hojiayun that's you!) and other equally smart friends, I am not very gifted academically. (or in any other areas), hence I should stop being complacent and thinking my As are within reach. BECAUSE THEY ARE NOT!!!!

but haha, studying is quite enjoyable. It's not as bad, I think studying alone's the best sometimes, but it's good to have company too occasionally. Classmates and random friends of friends whom I've known through mugging make me smile! Today at dinner, people started clappin damn loudly, and then soon we all realised it was for the parents who have been serving us cheap and good dinner these 2 weeks! It was kinda coool, the entire feeling! Yay i love RPA, they are srsly awesome people who willingly sacrifice so much time and money and effort just to do this for us! I feel like making a card for them because I think the school's really quite supportive!

Yeppyepp, and i found good new mugging hideouts! :D Okay, I don't think I'll update again till the As are almost over! Goodluck to everyone on my friend list, it's the last stretch so all the best!!!!!!! Take care of your health and drink lots of water, and have sufficient sleep!

hearts hearts hearts to everyone!

okay just some random thoughts after all this awards fiasco.

I just think some teachers should be a bit more generous. Honestly, an appreciation= thank you for contributing to the CCA for the past years. To the teacher, it's just merely putting an additional name down, but to the student, that little certificate is at least testament for all the hours he has spent in going for practices etc. While some teachers will sweetly give all the CCA members the appreciation award, some only bother giving those in exco positions, which is kinda unfair. So does it mean that normal members didn't put in any time and effort into the CCA?

Oh, haha, I am satisfied with what I got because I don't think i deserve a giant award because other people did so much more than me. I was just feeling sour about how back in RG, those who weren't in exco didn't even get a single cert for appreciation for band, when we practised almost every single day, and were really good dedicated members. Just because a particular LIM was being extremely stingy and bitchy.

okay, sry I sound like sourgrapes. But if i am a teacher next time, I'll promise I'll be nice and generous!
 

hoho RJ is just filled with too smart people! I saw some fb status that says that almost everyone has like 3 As! ohgosh, then i honestly think I'm at the bottom of the pack with no As to speak of.

okay end of rant, 34 more days for me to get 5 As. Smart people should all just stop complaining, or just complain in their smart circles and not near me.

off to conquer maths!

so effing tired, I feel like disappearing underground sometimes. I'm so tired, i don't even feel like talking to anyone. My brain feels like mush and honestly, i don't think there's much in it.

I saw a blind couple sitting opposite me in the train today, I wondered how their world is like. I can't imagine really, I tried thinking of some activities that I do that do not require sight, and I think the only things i could think of is listening to music and sleeping. I think being able to see is one of the luckiest things we are blessed with.

Maybe I should go puke all my insides out tmr, maybe it will make me feel better. Because seriously I have been feeling like C.R.A.P. Haha omg my mood's going to match my grades, how cute!

Need to go back to doing my portfolio, I'm falling asleep.

grrrr at tudou. it's loading like damn slowly, i am SO ANNOYED. I promised to start studying after I finished episode 23, and okay it's just my excuses, but once I've decided to start work after a certain time/certain event, I cannot start work before that. HAHAH, okay shit that totally sounded like the lamest excuse, but wev.

That's why I start work at nice times! Like 11.00PM, 11.30PM, 11.15PM kinda thing, not like 11.23PM, or 11.47PM. haha, so if I missed a nice time, which happens 4 times in 1 hour, I just have to wait for the next one! heee omg maybe that's why I am always so unproductive!

By the time my show finishes, I bet I'll be too lazy to do physics. :/ nyehh nyeh.

ah 1 more day of slacking at home and then it's back to school, results. :( NOT QT. speaking of which, i have not thought about unis for kinda a long while. shit, I need to stop being absorbed in hk dramas, reading food blogs and celebs' blogs, and finding nice pictures, and waking up at grand times of 11AM!  I think i've forgotten how to mug. :(

boo omg results, now that it's edging closer, I'm kinda getting worried. And As' in idk how many days' time? just slightly more than a month i think, someone update me please!

2 important birthdays coming up this weekend! (: mommmmyypoopsie and tangtangtangtangtang!

k, word of the day.

no okay more catching up for cheryl today! <3 I miss many people, like lisa tan and tan ying ching! And haha tan weiting, i think I talk to you enough so I don't need to miss you! Eh, why all TANs!

I srsly sound stupid. i missed heart of greed today. But dear dazzlingskies who is leaving her lj and wishing everyone best of luck with the rest of their lives, just sent me the link so I have something to occupy myself today! :D

HISSSSYFIT.

I kinda miss studying...

hahahaha okay okay, that was a very fleeting thought, I don't think I do. But going out is really more tiring than just studying at home, I am DEAD BEAT after 3 consecutive days of going out.

I'm kinda damn sick of town, damn sick of seeing crowds, damn sick of thinking of what I have to wear (cos I have nothing wearable anymore, I srsly want to throw out everything in my closet). I kinda miss just wearing my big comfy school tee and fbts, which has been my uniform for like the past 2 months. I mean I like dressing up and all, but only when I have nice clothes to wear, not when I have such limited choices. And everyone in town looks so nice and pretty nowadays, you'll just stick out like a sore thumb if you don't put in some effort into your dressing.

Okay, 2 more days of going out since all the plans have beeen made, and I'm going to stay at home and enjoy being a homegirl. Plus, i have no more money to go shopping so that leaves me in an extremely bad mood. But at least I get to spend time with people I love, so it's not that bad i guess.

I'm tired, I wanna read a book. :( Tired tired tired tired. I'm kinda scared of starting uni apps. :/

( you take this hand, you take this heart, steal my bones from 1000 miles apart )

ohhh yay holidaysss!!!!

okay i kid, but 2 more papers left. When there was half an hour left to the end of econs paper, i wasn't thinking about FDIs anymore. I was thinking about dinner later with my family and just waiting for it to end. It's the end of a tortourous week, I can't believe I'm still alive! whoopee, I am just happy to finish all my papers, I don't feel anything after the papers anymore. Maybe cos I'm too used to screwing up, it doesn't even feel strange anymore not knowing how to do like more than half of the questions, or like writing nonsense for most of the stuff. Or sounding like a layman talking about rocks for my geog paper.

I think I should go lay bricks, I remember carrying bricks to stablise the take5 structure. I could carry like 4 at a time. Not bad huh, then i can use a trolley or something. Hmm, if i don't become a construction worker,I can take orders for Canadian Pizza Takeway, they have an outlet near my house.

hahahaha. i just want prelims to end, then at least i can go shopping and play.

okay going to sleep soon! yay for me! i am going to wake up at like 10 tmr because I have 3 days to study for stats and 2 days for physics mcq. okay will stop rubbing it in for all the people who still have many papers, goodluck everyone!

If all else fails, we can go lay bricks together. Build up some muscles yo!

wo bu yao du shu le. wo fei chang fei chang yan juan.

i'll willingly sit for 10 chinese exams than 1 dumb maths/phys/econs/phy geog paper. at least i had some hope in chinese.